saw this happening at the mrt quite some time ago.
the little girl kept doing this the whole time mommy was toking to her fren- in and out the shirt for at least 3 min.
tt was how long it took for the mrt to come.
i am surprised the mom din lose her temper.

nonetheless, it was quite funny watching :)


man, if tt were me and my mom, she wld have given me one tight slap.

are you getting enough cat food lately? says:
ask u huh..wad do divers use to breath underwater?

milkboy: what's the name of the song in the new heineken advert? says:
regulators?

are you getting enough cat food lately? says:
yes!!! haha just wanna prove my point..divers will use more technical terms
are you getting enough cat food lately? says:
cos i was watching a game show on tv..den this question was asked
are you getting enough cat food lately? says:
and i tot 'regulator'
are you getting enough cat food lately? says:
but the ans is...
are you getting enough cat food lately? says:
oxygen tank

milkboy: what's the name of the song in the new heineken advert? says:
haha it's actually wrong haha
milkboy: what's the name of the song in the new heineken advert? says:
it's air tank



ooooh it just gets better aint it ;)

things to do later:

• cut hair
• print notes for classes
• pack room
• find nice magazine/ cartoon pictures to decorate my files
• prepare for sch
• pack wardrobe (haha rite- too messy)

strong tea and coke is keeping me up.

caffine is not my good friend. not at all.

xmas pressie num 3!
from qing qing!


wads this?


ahhh an assortment of ferrero delights! :)

feeling bored.

PrnCeSs JaSz says:
haha
PrnCeSs JaSz says:
they sae is damn funnie

singing dee da da dum dee da da dum da oh oh says:
so just nice..we can have lunch

PrnCeSs JaSz says:
gd gd

singing dee da da dum dee da da dum da oh oh says:
who is 'they'
singing dee da da dum dee da da dum da oh oh says:
ur imaginery friends?
singing dee da da dum dee da da dum da oh oh says:
=D

PrnCeSs JaSz says:
doink
PrnCeSs JaSz says:
wad imaginery frens ?
PrnCeSs JaSz says:
u going camping ah ?

singing dee da da dum dee da da dum da oh oh says:
no lah
singing dee da da dum dee da da dum da oh oh says:
not going liao
singing dee da da dum dee da da dum da oh oh says:
my imaginery frens all not free

bunny bunny is going home tmr.


where did bunny's other ear go?

this is a 3 part quiz.
click on each part to do the quiz (eg click on "eyes open", "group" and "solid ground")

a not so merry christmas.

i woke up with a stupid migraine and it lasted the whole damn day.

so i was not in the mood for anything at all and i had a terrible time trying to coax bunny back into the cage.

i was half dead when i went to my neighbour's house and left without having dinner (they asked me to stay for dinner).

i tried to sleep off my migraine but failed; as in, i couldnt sleep.
i dun rem wad i did, i think i roamed ard the house aimlessly and patted bunny several times and tried to hit the sheets a few more times.

den there was dinner...and i think i went to bed after tt and thankfully managed to Zzz and woke up feeling quite better.

and i had junk food rush.

went downstairs and bot pringles, marshmallow and ice cream and crashed in front of the teevee, watched my sec sch crush play in a game show and lost.

den i decided to come online and blog a depressing entry.

here u go.

damn my nice snowflakes have decided not to show themselves >_<
but i shall leave them as they are with the hope that they will load one day!!

but frankly, i know that chances are slim -grumbles-

mebbe i can try figure the script out..and hopefully put back the image of the snowflake
and i can put confetti during new year...falling mandrine oranges during cny and flowers for most of the year, falling leaves in aug and raindrops in december!!

hoho!

anyway the purpose of this entry is.....
to hao lian my xmas pressie number 2!! :D

here u go:


guess wad, tis little handbag was given to me by...
the doctor at the clinic where i work at!!
nice riteeeee
apparently he gave all the clinic assts xmas pressie every year
and of cos..angpows for cny hehehehehe :)

anyway i saw this bag quite some time ago and kinda liked it but one reason or another, i din get down to buying it buttttttttttttt tada! here it is now! given to me as xmas pressie~
wad a nice coincidence!

great great, i love all my xmas pressies!

i got my 1st christmas pressie just now frm ah zan :)
xie xie ah zan!!

the fake tiffany charm bracelet (comes with cyan box too! haha)
it's so nice and shiny; i dun even feel like wearing it!!


and a hello kitty hairclip hee

i was watching the repeat telecast of "look who's leading" on tvmobile.

and the host asked the contestant (a kid) a question.

"wad do divers use to breathe underwater?"

and i tot to myself, "wow wad a difficult question! wld the kid know that the ans is regulator?"

kid: oxygen tank
host: correct!

oh well.
i think too much -_-

i am a little sick of penguin classics.
all the seriousness is making me feel a little dull.
i think i shld borrow some other books.
mebbe something from chris manby or shopaholic series.

let me get rid of my current batch of books first.

i think i am being overly ambitious whenever i visit the library.

have you actually seen the books i borrowed?
haha no, i dun need someone to remind me that i only have a few weeks to finish reading them.
i know tat myself!
but i just cant resist borrowing a good book :x






okok! i am kiasu! i admit! argh!!
im actually more concerned about the book being borrowed by others ya know.
so i figured id just "choup" it first by taking it home teeheehee :D nvm the time limit i have for reading it/them.

just for info sake, i am only 3 pages thru anna karenina hahaha
its a book with 800 over pages lalala

since i was working for 2 weeks, i had no time to read it until now but then, i am not done with my hunchback of notre dame yet (miguel street is done tho)...hahaha...i have a serious case of erm...i duno! wad do u call that??

anyway, i hereby declare that i do not like james joyce's books!
i tried portrait of an artist as a young man and dubliners and twice i gave up before the next chapter...
actually i couldnt find the next chapter for portrait of an artist (-_-")
and dubliners is a collection of short stories so it wasnt too bad but i did not finish reading the whole book all the same.

the last time i was at the library, i finally found ulysses, picked it up, walked round the lib a few times and dumped the book back where i found it.
i think i made a wise decision (but den i picked up dubliners duh).
looks like i would have to give ulysses a miss since i do not like joyce's style of writing!
too bad, considering the fact that i have been wanting to read it (of course, it was before i started on any of joyce's books).

going back to the lib on the 18th!
where is my kafka? i wanna read metamorphosis (ahh spellcheck pls)!
and simone! all men(man?) are mortal! i am dying to read this one!
the concept of existentialism is so bleedy interesting!
go find out more about it if you care.

because christmas is coming ;)

.:: I am finally done with the budget

At last, the budget is finalised!
Felt a sense of achievement and relief as I finished tabulating the amounts.
Running through the budget on Friday before the votes are cast by the ex-co, only because I want to make sure I really know what is going on with the money.

Mailers for SSU elections are out.
Posters are out.
Nomination forms are out.

Which means that I am one step closer to stepping down!
HA HA HA HA!!

But strangley, I think I'd miss being a FC.
In the midst of all the hustle and bustle, I forgot what it means to be one.
It's about being responsible and delivering your promises on time.

I guess being an FC is very much like being in the service line.
Well, at least to me.

I'm nice and friendly to everyone who approaches me with claims or enquiries.
I'm always politically correct and well mannered, I reply emails with nice tones, I refrain from using negetive phrases, I mull over my email replies so as not to come across as pissed/irritated/proud/rude/bochup.
Except for one occasion, I couldn't help but reply curtly.
Which I shan't bother explaining cos I know busybodies like you prefer to read about such stuff rather than what I have to say =)

I learn how to deal with assholes/idiots/childish creeps
I learn how to do budgeting, how to negotiate, how to build bridges (and try maintaining them).
SM keeps saying that she thinks I learn alot as an FC but all I do is to settle claims.
But I guess she is right, I did learn alot.

I guess my FC days ain't so bad afterall.
It sux when you're stuck in the middle of a long queue, waiting for your turn at the ride but at the end of the day, it's the ride you remember more than the slow queue.

.:: How does it feel like to be misunderstood?

How does it feel like to be misunderstood?
I guess when the whole world (almost) is against you, it takes a strong person to say I DON'T CARE.
Or someone who really doesn't care.

He was looking so forlon today, my heart goes out to him.
He looked sad and tired and carrying so much work on his shoulders.
Those who dislike him may say that he asked for it.
Friends (any friends out there?) will shake their heads and say nobody sees and appreciates his efforts.
Ok he has friends, cos I quoted the above from his friend.

I'm confused.
Was the saying "Do not judge a man by his words" or "Do not judge a man by his actions"?
Should be the former I suppose; makes more sense to me.
Since "Action speaks louder than words" (duh, another saying), so I guess what a person does or not do is more important!

But what if words got in the way of actions?
Would judgement be affected?
And if so, would the person never have a chance to redeem himself through his actions?
Would others even give him a chance?
Would others give themselves a chance to accept his actions, to overlook his "words" and see what is beyond?

edited on 02/09/04, 7:18pm

.:: I threw my textbook aside and blog

I hate school.
I hate this sem.

I really do.

Every Sunday, I plant myself in front of the computer and say the same thing over and over to different people who are unfortunate enough to be chatted up by yours truely- I hate school.
Don't get me wrong, it's not a routine, eventhough I might have made it sound this way.

Every morning, I swim 10 laps at the pool.
Every Friday, I take my poochy dahling out for a manicure.

It's the sheer agony of knowing that school is just round the corner and there is nothing you can do to make the weekend stay.
It doesn't help that I have Fridays off; long weekends feels like no weekends anyway.

Seriously, I have no idea what's wrong with me this sem.
I'd rather spend my time online, rot, sleep, go out or watch tv than do my work.
No zest, no vigour.
Dragging my feet, shuffling around.
At least once or twice a week, I'd have fancy thoughts of If-only-it's-still-the-hols.
Which never fails to start a chorus of Yah lohs from my peers.
So you see, it's not just me.
But I am one of the worse case scenario.

I didn't exactly start off this sem full of anticipation n eagerness.
In fact, all the bad feelings/karma/aura (whatever) from the holidays seem to have followed me into the new term.
Not enough rest makes Millie an irritated/grumpy/lifeless/lethargic kid.
Eventhough these symptoms coincide with those commonly found in PMS stricken gals but let me assure you, I did not for a moment mistook signs of PMS for School Blues.

To side track a little, this is a really weird sem.
Many seem to have grouses about it.
Bids were super high and people can't get modules and end up with 1 or 2 pathetic ones.
Or none at all.
Not enough textbooks to go around at the 2nd hand book bazaar.
(Why is everyone holding on to their books? For the majors?)
Yes, I think it's weird. Cos they have never happened before.
It's just as strange and puzzling as rats coming out into the open and dying in numbers.
Fortunately, I did not suffer from all the above, thank you for your concern.

Back on track, I really need to turn things around.
Stay like this and it'll drive me to my academic grave.
But I feel like I'm trapped and can't seem to break free.
I need to find my energy to face the term.
I don't know how and where to start.

.:: Eating badly

I have been eatingly really badly for the past few days.
I need to stay off meat for at least 2 weeks and "detox" myself with veggies and lots of water!
Need to eat light.

How about sandwiches for every meal?
Or nice yummy corn with mushroom soup?

.:: It's official

I turn 22 today.
No more trying to decide between 21 or 22 under the "age" section of whatever forms I may be filling up.

.:: Back again

A new layout, eventhough I have not been writing much these days.
Doesn't mean you can't change your frock even if you don't shower that regularly right!

Changes I've made to the blog this time round:

• Decided to do away (once again) with the chatterboard: nobody writes on them anymore and I am getting annoying pop-ups.
• Decided to keep only 1mth under the Archives section: nobody reads them anyway.
• Decided not to have announcements at the sidebar: saves me trouble from editing them and yes, nobody reads them anyway haha
• Brought back the comment boxes; actually I prefer them to chatterboxes.

Here is a short update on what has been going on my life:

School
I started school on 16th Aug.
Do your math and you will realise I am currently into my 2nd week.

I am taking 5 modules...

1. Quantitative methods
2. Consumer Behaviour
3. Technology & World Change
4. Marketing Research
5. Introduction to French Literature

And I have a 4 day week, 2 days afternoon classes and 2 days morning classes. I have to say, afternoon classes are very disruptive and very bad for health. They occur right in the middle of the day and frankly, your can't do much work in the morning before class, unless you wake up pretty early. And after class, it's already 5 or 7pm and you don't get much time too before bedtime. I mean, the day just seems so much shorter when you have afternoon classes!

I am not coping well, thank you for your concern.
The readings are piling up and I am oblivious to what is going on in class.
Not that I have not been paying attention, I'm fine when learning is concerned.
I have no idea what is going on with regards to projects and assignments.
Urgh am I the only one in such a daze?

SAS/SSU
SMU Association of Sports is on its way to becoming a CBd and will thus be know as SMU Sports Union.
Bah.
Terribly creative but at least people will stop thinking tat SAS=SA (Students' Association).
That really gets on my nerves.
I'd rather people never heard of SAS than associate us with a bunch of _______.
Fill in the blank yourself. Hmmm..any negetive words would be fine haha.

Recently, SAS/SSU had a war with the SA but I shall not elaborate cos it's a bloody long story.
It is somewhere along the line of...budget, undermining authority and stepping on toes.
But boy am I glad that I will be stepping down soon!
About 6 more weeks and after the elections, I'd be free!
You have no idea how long I've waited for this day to arrive!
Haha, note that all my above sentences regarding stepping down and being free all ended in exclaimation marks hehe!
Oh well, I know I will still have to guide the newbie along but I don't see it as hell.
What could be more hellish than being FC of SAS?
Fortunately, everything will be over soon.
Those which did not kill me, will make me stronger!

Remind me to write an entry on the day I step down and I shall share with everyone my most wonderful experience of my days as SAS FC.
Opps! I think the sarcasm detector just went off!

Part time job
I am working part time in a clinic at Telok Blangah and I kinda like working there.
It's nice to have some medical knowledge and I guess the notion of being a doctor never really went away.
I've always wanted to be a MSF- Médecins Sans Frontières and that translates to "Doctors without Borders".
But my ambition was cruelly taken away from me in sec 3 as my grades were not good enough to qualify for Biology.
Ah yes, the education system sucks. BIG TIME!

Life
I am trying to get a life you see.
After 2 years of slaving for SAS, it's high time I do something I like.
So I am attending courses now.
Windsurfing, Topper sailing and...maybe Salsa!

Hello I'm Millie and I could be sashaying into a ballroom near you ;)

Yup! I did it again!
I was crappy and corny.

By the way, I really love corn.
-Corny alarm goes off again-

edited on 27/08/04, 10:40pm

.:: Oust!

I need to be really cold blooded and heartless...merciless even! ...and throw out my old clothes and toiletries! And JC notes!!
They are really taking up space!!

.:: Double booking crap

2nd trial run for the water games today.
The weather wasn't looking too good when I was making my way to the CCAB pool and when I got there with Dorothy [bumped into her at the entrance], there was only Calvin sleeping on the steps.

He was complaining about the impending rain; how everyone was late and how early he woke up this morning just to arrive and find himself first at the pool [and he was already late by the way].

There were other people there too, some heavily madeup females in similar attires and 2 guys mebbe.
And then the 3 of us realised that hey, those people are from Channel 8.
Isn't that Jeanette Aw sitting there?
And eventhough I did not recognise the rest of the girls, I did find this girl familiar but I do not remember her name; some new comer.
And after awhile, Fiona Xie showed up.
And I'm not sure if I made a mistake but I thought Rachael Lee [Eye for a guy] showed up too?
And the rest of the SWEAT camp people showed up; actually just Elaine, BQ and Cindy and we started bitchin about the Mediacorp girls.

They were saying Fiona Xie "zhen ren bi dian shi shang bu hao kan"
and we realised while Fiona Xie and the rest of the girls were chatting happily, doodling on paper and looking through their scripts, Jeanette Aw was quietly sitting in a corner with a guy [her nanny perhaps?] and staring at the rain and pool [it rained shortly after].
Dorothy was saying she had been observing Jeanette Aw and thinks that she looked like a dummy.

Not stupid dummy but mannequin dummy.
Cos she sat there quietly for a really long time and not moving a muscle.
But of course, we all know she's real and alive cos she blinked once in awhile.
And I think most of them agreed that she looks prettier in person.

Anyway if you guys really pay attention to entertainment news, you would have guessed by now that they were there to film the swimming drama. Whatever the name is.

Anyway, all these aren't the point.

The thing is, well, how can Mediacorp and us use the pool at the same time?
We were there at the same timing.
So Dorothy checked with the lifeguard and realised there was this double booking crap.
SMU and Mediacorp booked the pool for the same timings.
Seems like SMU and Mediacorp booked the pool through 2 different parties and neither side bothered to check the availability.
Oh wow.

So in the end, it was decided that the pool should come to us haha [not that we negotiated with CH8].
It was raining heavily and both parties couldn't do anything but at least we could use the pool when the rain subsided a little. Filming couldn't go on in the rain and apparently their whole schedule must have been disrupted by the rain cos they left when it stopped.

Calvin was pretty disappointed.
I guess he wanted to see the girls in swimming costumes.

.:: Are we all guilty of it?

Lying is not only saying what isn't true. It is also, in fact especially, saying more than is true and, in the case of the human heart, saying more than one feels. We all do it, every day, to make life simpler.

.:: Bang bang!

eLiShA tEo says:
barney song:

i love u, u love me,
we're a happy family,
with a great big hug & a kiss from me to you,
won't u say u love me too...

i hate u, u hate me,
lets go out and kill barney,
with a gun shot 'bang bang' barney on the floor,
no more purple dinosaur!

.:: Dry eyes

I lurrrrve the new JE library!

What large collection of books they have!
Of cos, it's a regional library now, silly.

Anyway I went to Sembawang library and to my acute disappointment, I couldn't find the books I was looking for ie Dubliners and Metamorphosis...BUT I did saw Ulysses sitting on the shelves and it was...2 inches thick maybe?

Damn.

I realised I don't particularly enjoy Joyce's books...alrite...book...cos I only read 1/3 of it.
Kinda tempted to dump Portrait of the Artist into the bookdrop! Haha~
So maybe I should not attempt reading Ulysses after all...!

I did not manage to find Dubliners and Metamorphosis at the JE library; I swore they were there a few weeks ago!
But I found other books I want =D

- La Symphonie Pastorale & Isabella by Gide
- The Castle by Kafka
- Great Wall of China & Other Short Works by Kafka
- Steppenwolf by Hesse

Elated.
Gonna have dry eyes from reading them.

.:: And the reason is you.

This is not a touching entry about how great love has changed my life.

This entry is about how SAS is making me dislike school.

But I'm going to bed now..shall edit this entry when I feel like it.

So meanwhile, here is a little something to keep you all entertained:

i saw pichonkun today says:
oh man

i saw pichonkun today says:
u wun believe wad i found the ants feeding on

KiWeTO says:
ants?

KiWeTO says:
dead lizard?

i saw pichonkun today says:
no

i saw pichonkun today says:
a piece of my dead skin

KiWeTO says:
ooh. its still food to them

i saw pichonkun today says:
i din think it wld attract ants!

KiWeTO says:
its got lots of protein

KiWeTO says:
they need it to lift 50x their weight

i saw pichonkun today says:
..

i saw pichonkun today says:
thanks for the sci lesson

KiWeTO says:
hahaha.

.:: The middle 

I like simple blog layouts =) 

Have gotten a little sick of the old girlosophy layout eventhough I have not been going to the site much.

Anyway, this layout has been with me for a really long time.
The reason why I did not change it sooner was that I could not find a nice photo to put in the middle.....and then I stumbled across this picture of Ta Phrom =)

.:: I can't do it anymore.

I can't seem to blog anymore.

I think I'd rather tell someone about what has been going on in my life rather than write about it.

If I were to type my every single day here, what would I have left to say to my friends?

.:: DooooDoooo
 
Things to do tomorrow [in chronological order]-
 
Swim
Went jogging at WCP just now and I realised I can't stand running anymore.
The pool opens at 8:00am and I shall aim to be there at about this timing; I have to anyway coz I have to be in school at 11:00am.
The later I start swimming, the less time I have for it!
 
Go school
School is seriously putting me off man.
Hmm...I think it's the position of FC that is getting on my nerves.
I am terribly wanted, especially during the hols.
And I hate that.
I want some peace and quiet.
I yearn for a getaway.
Or better still, let me step down soon!
 
Meet Kuazzie
That is, if she is not too sick tomorrow.
She came back from HK at 12 mindnight, went M'sia the next day with her parents and went Wild Wild Wet soon after that.
Little wonder why she felt quite ill.
Not enough rest.
And she hasn't replied to my SMS yet regarding tomorrow's meet up.
 
Go work
Yup, I'm quite happy working at the clinic actually =)
Eventhough the pay is kinda peanuts...
 

.:: One reason or another.
 
Either the desserts at Bakers Inn has been overrated, or that I was really stuffed or mebbe it's because I did not order their signature cake(s)- I ate their Chocolate Souffle with Thyme Ice-cream.
 
Anyway the souffle was pretty normal and ok.
A tad too sweet for me.
The Thyme ice-cream has a kinda interesting flavour though.
 
Anyway Little Princess ate their Warm Chocolate Cake and she was absolutely in heaven.
 


Chocolate cake with chocolate sauce in the middle, topped with vanilla ice-cream...
And nicely decorated with really sour berries and stawberries and sweet strawberry sauce.
 
Oh and a $9.50 price tag attached to it.
 

.:: Barney needs Became.
 
In case you guys are wondering, Became is the name of a decongestant pill.
Take 1 tablet 3 times a day.
It helps relieves a stuffed nose.
 
Barney is a dinosaur and he lives in our imagination -sings-
 
What was that?
I remember this slogan from the Perfect10 ad- Better to have a song stuck in your head.
And it showed a fella wandering round with an axe jammed into his brains.
 
I say, gimme the axe anytime.
 
The children called it Barney too.
That was the reply my doc gave me when I told him I named his purple dino torch Barney.
I think, the song made me do it, made me name the dino Barney.
Yeah everything purple is Barney man.
 
Is a brinjal Barney?
Yes.
How about a bunch of purple grapes?
Absolutely.
 
FeiTan told me a story once:
A group of kids were watching Little Red Riding Hood the play and at the end when the Big Bad Wolf died, all of them cried cos the wolf was purple and they thought it was Barney who had kicked the bucket.
 
Awwwwww.
 
Which proves to show (once again) that everything and anything purple can be labelled Barney.
You can dress yourself in purple and the kids will scream BARNEY BARNEY! at you.
But it has to be the exact same shade of purple, if not 'em little tykes won't acknowledge ya...
 
and the Barney theme song lives on.
 

did u know that the nepal flag is not rectangular? =)

wad?

only 2 more mths to my birthday?

i bot a nice dress and im saving it for my bdae =)
its on a saturday this yr; shall i plan something?

tot id write something b4 my virtual journal starts to collect dust.

so...here u go.

SOMETHING.

money is slowing rolling in!
-clap clap!-

big money big moneyyyyyyyyy!

yipee!

i finally got my mini debit card today and yes it IS small haha.

hmm AC Nielsen called me up today and asked me to go down tmr for orientation.
good good money is slowly coming in hehe

i oso msged ken abt the citibank job; heard tat many ppl have quit and perhaps they need more ppl? not sure but he said he'll keep me informed, hoho :)

today is a good day, i shall rate it a 4/5
if only i cld activate my debit card today, den it wld be a perfect 5 ;)

listening to an mp3 jel sent me, stacie orrico, stuck:

I ain't trippin
I'm just missing (you)
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean (yeah)

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do..
I'm such a fool
For you

I can't take it
what am i waiting for?
my hearts still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you!
It's true
I'm stuck on you

Now love's a broken record that's
Been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we got to play these games we play?

I ain't trippin
I'm just missing (you)
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean (yeah)

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool

urrrrgh

this has to be one of the worse mornings ever.

woke up and was supposed to go sch and help pack the matric stuff.
i told yuyu the nite b4 tat it starts at 9:30am but in actual fact, it started at 8:30am!

so when he was like...1 min away frm OTH, i called him up and told him tat they have already finished with the packing.

needless to say, he was angry lah; wasted trip to school and he woke up at 7:30am
not to mention the fact tat he doesnt live near sch...abt 1hr travel time i think...
it was my fault eventho it was an honest mistake and i was also on my way to sch when i got the news.

was trying to appease him online cos apparently he was using the comp in sch.
and seems like another girl was also affected by my mistake.
i think he was ok after awhile but i still feel bad lah =(
he was kinda irritated loh.

urrgghh.
guilt stricken.

wad a way to start the day.

okies im going swimming tmr morning.
mebbe i shld decide how many laps i wanna do tmr..
how abt 40?
and mebbe do some brisk walking in the evening if im not too tired

input < output= wt loss!

im gonna shed 5kg this mth hehe
try lah ;p

i dropped my hp yest and it died on the spot.
RIP.

and i do not have a hp now.
and i have my own bad suspicion tat my laptop may be infecetd.
sooooooo, im virtually uncontactable now.

good.

alrite, i have decided to forego internship this summer and look out for more interesting job openings next yr.

had wanted to apply internship cos its getting less competitive now.
and most of my frens are doing internship now and i cant stand the fact tat im not! >_<
on top of it all, i need money to fund my AOW course and yr end trip to vietnam!!
-gives a sad mew-

so to make up for not doing internship now, i'll have to achieve something this hols.
so im gonna do some part time here and there and slowly save up.

an estimation of how much i need:
vietnam trip - $1k (more than enuff)
dive gear - $200 (fins + booties)
[KIV] AOW course - $450

and to make my hols more worthwhile, i tot of doing something which i haven done in ages.
comm service =)
i saw an interesting one, by the Triathlon Association of Singapore.
they need volunteers for the NEW BALANCE AQUATHLON CHALLENGE 2004.

Date: 26 June 2004
Venue: Siloso Beach, Sentosa
Hours of work needed: 1030hrs to 1700hrs.

anybody wanna join me?

i give up, i really have to give up.
there is nothing i can do at this point in time.
i already did my best and if he is not receptive den wad the hell can i still do?!
ok i shld have heeded god's advice in the 1st place.

im sorry.
im sorry i wasted my time and energy.
and i shld have been superstitious and heeded the magical book of answers in the 1st place.
it did say tat this will cost me and no, yuyu doesnt like me.

so he didnt like me den or now.
and i tot i cld change things...
and i tot i cld make things work hahahahahahahahahaa!
a big fat joke.

pls dun ask me how things are between me and yuyu anymore k.
spare me the agony.
dun comfort me.
let the rain clouds above me pass.

my social circle is shrinking.
is there no one i can ask out, in good times and bad times?

the only person i can think of asking out is...him
and i know he'll meet up; he never turn down invitations frm anyone- almost never.
but i dun wanna ask him out.
cos his gf is back and i dun wan to take his time away from the gf.
and its not as if we havent spent enuff time in that 3 weeks.
its enuff to last me this whole hols.

and as i start cracking my head to think of who to ask, a realization came over me.
there is no one i can ask.
yea not everyone is as free as i am; they can't come and go as they wish.

i understand.

OMG WAD A SAD LIFE I AM LEADING!

eh i feel lk getting a new backpack.
40+5L is not quite enuff.
erm anyone willing to let me have a space on their ebay or yahoo auctions?
i need to sell my current one.

just saw it on the news, someone died while diving in aur.
and my mom started to nag at me again.

i guess no one will ever know what happened except for the unfortunate diver himself, bless his soul.

there are many, many fatalities in the open waters but not all deaths were reported.
and lives were also lost when my dive operator conducted lessons in the past.
i guess i was a little shocked when i first realised the fact but i guess it is inevitable for such things to happen, since diving does involve a certain level of risk.

i guessed id rather not find out and keep thinking that they have a perfect track record.
its not tat i have lost faith in them but somehow...well, id remember.

but it wun become and obstacle for me to go diving.

let me count the monies i made this hols:

$55 from my AC Nielsen recep job
$60 from IEC
grand total= $115

not a very grand grand total but id build it up slowly.
need to bug those ppl who can gimme work.
got to save up for vietnam trip!

btw i have no reservations about working for frens ya know.
as long as they pay me well ;)

this feels weird!

i was reading my old entires and i cant believe the things i wrote down!

its like reading off someone else's blog; the style of writing, the emotions involved all seem so alien!

gosh, its my blog, my entires, my babies! [drama]
and i dun recognize them at all! [drama again]

and some entires were really interesting, such a waste to be in the dead & gone section.
many entires abt yuyu hee
many entires abt how sch is making my life a complete hell...ok sch's not tat bad...how sch is making my life miserable hahaha
and surprise surprise, many entires abt him too.

who?

the person who has been taking advantage of my availability of cos, who else?
-roll eyes-

and i have to admit, i do have happy times with him.
my entries tell all; they dun lie.
i felt happier when we hung out together in sch.
so y are things the way they are now?

too much of something is indeed bad.
we hung out sparringly during sch term but this almost-consecutive-days of hanging out during hols is really too much.

i hate archery.
i hate the president.

they NEVER turn up for meetings, NEVER bother to reply emails...
but oh so quick in demanding for more budget
i bet they know nuts about wads going on in the sports fraternity now.

and they hand in ultra sloppy claim forms.

wad the shit??!
ive got a good mind to throw the damn form back at them.
at him actually, the president.

i seriously think i shld get some work done this hols!
i cant stand myself anymore; im freakin rotting my life away!

i need to pick up books again- im getting stupid, i can feel it.

i need to get my biological clock back on track once more- no more late nites, im gonna hit the sheets at 10pm or 10:30pm latest.
beauty sleep is essential, gotta do some damage control yah?!
oust those dark rings and bad complexion!! tho i do think my dark rings are cronic.
damn. -_-

i need to start picking up the pieces.
all my finance work left aside for far too long.
need to get everything back on track!

and and and...
the num one thing i shld do for all times!
shall i do a drum roll? teehee!

but nah.
everyone knows already for god's sake!

to lose weight!
wad else?! ;p

i realised alot of guys are afraid of cockroaches and/or lizards.

i hate cockroaches and spray insecticide on them from far. i stamp my feet to chase lizards away.

cockroaches scare me- they fly ard. i leave lizards alone- they get rid of mosquitoes.

im a little afraid of cockroaches but i usualyy work up enough courage to kill them with insecticide. lizards are another question though. im afraid of them, either i run away or i spray them with lots of insecticide and hope they die.

fail.

just wasted half my life away, arguing with someone abt how money shld be allocated to the clubs.

the argument was stupid becos:

1) both of us have extremely differing views and neither is able to win the other over nor willing to reconcile the differences.

2) fledging sas is abt to spread its wings and fly away from the sa. we wun be depending on worms frm sa now; we fight for our fair share of worms with sa (especially sa) and the other cbds.

3) i wun be fc in the future and he might not even run for sa. if so, y were we arguing?

sheesh -_- wad a waste of time and energy; all tat anger.

operation brownie failed.



tata brownie, i hope u find a good home.

interested?
ask me abt adopting brownie.
or read below to know more first:

excerpts from email
"Dear all,

I am appealing for fosterers or a permanent home for Brownie, a one year plus female mongrel.

My friend and I first found Brownie at Simei, roaming the compounds of PetSafari. She was affectionate despite it being our first meeting. We decided we wanted to help this dog with the most trusting eyes. After being rehomed, she was sent to a farm without our knowledge. We made a trip to the farm and seeing how contented she was getting the full run of the place, we decided to leave her there even though we were initally against the idea.

Unfortunately, during our last visit, we found out that she has been tied up to a pole for the past two weeks. The people at the farm were willing to let her go and Brownie is now putting up at my place. So far, i've had no complains, save for that over affectionate tongue and her propeller-like wagging tail. Behaviour: Excellent. Taught her basic commands like 'Sit','Down' and 'Up' effortlessly. Eliminates on grass. Sterilised. Not fussy with food. No known health problems as of April 2004.

As great a companion as she is, parents will be parents. My mom is adamant about NOT having two dogs in the house and I'm afraid Brownie's deadline is drawing near. I sincerely hope for someone to step forward to offer a temporary/ permanent home for the sweetest dog i've met,out of the countless dogs i've had encounters with. A mongrel she may be, but she's got a heart bigger than many of the dogs i know. I appeal for someone to step forward for a chance to fall in love with this dog I refuse to put on the streets. Give Brownie a chance, please do not dismiss her until you've met her ... ..."

ive met brownie and yes, she is every bit as described in the email.

this is so upsetting num 2.

i still canot get my maxonline to work

and i just wasted half my freakin life away
*pek chek*

this is so upsetting.
i cant get my maxonline to work.

connected to local network at 100mbps but i cant go online.
i think its becos the bytes sent and received are waaaaaay too low.

i get that when i use dialup sometimes.

and my modem, the 'standby' button is not working.
wad the hell?
its a f**king new one!
grrrrrrrrr!

i applied for the following today:

1) uob mini debit card.
jel:: they told me 2 weeks to process...hmmm how come they told u 1mth?

2) maxonline1500
and under their promotion package, i am entitled to one freebie:
- modem
- wireless router
- mp3 player

i opted for the modem; it seems like the more practical choice eventhough i wld love the router or mp3 palyer.

just got a letter from uob, asking me to sign up for their mini debit card.

hey they can read my mind!
they have saved me the trouble of going down to the bank.
shall fill up the form and send it over instead teehee.

i cant wait to get my hands on the mini card!
but i heard they take a long time to process.
sheesh (-_-")

alrite, im finally done with my new layout after hrs of hardwork.
seems dumb tat it took me such a long time to come up with this simple design.
but hey i drew it by hand man (on paper) and used dreamweaver to help do the layout.
damnit i spent more than 6hrs on this?
but gimme a break cos im a perfectionist (all the previewing and fine tuning) and i dun really know much abt html codes.
those miserable codes i know didnt really help much.
well, i cant say i am very happy with it...it cld be better but i really duno the codes so i cant make changes.
looks like id have to live with the shortcomings :|

wads new in this blog:
basically, nothing.

i removed the comment boxes cos it really hurts to see nobody writing stuff inside.
sobz.
and i brought back the chatterbox!!
i know everyone misses it awwwwwwww :D
so is everyone happy now?
i oso brought back my bday calander haha but different script this time round.
this script is better! can count down to any stuff under the sun, not just bday! ;p
but as u can see, i still choose to countdown till my bday yah?
hinty hinty hinty!
ehehehee

and y on earth did i put this pic on my blog?
got this off the billabong website...
as motivation to lose wt, wad else?
hahaha!

"i wanna lose wt! i wanna be like those sufer girls on the billabong website!"
"... u need lots of discipline to get those kind of bod."
"yea i know...its ok, id achieve it one day and i'll look like those billabong sufer girls!! yeah man!"
"u wan to model for billabong? but in china lah."
"will i get paid?"
"yea i believe so."
"how much?"
"abt 400?"
"rmb?"
"yah."
"!!!"

hahaha
great bod great bod great bod great bod
-chants-

i miss my days in the orchestra.

i miss practising.

i miss performing.

the urge to play again has nv been stronger; i wonder y.
maybe the monotony of the hols is finally getting into me.

no job, no life.
and ppl are abusing my availability.
more like 'someone' actually *rolls eyes*

i feel like picking up my bow once more.

maybe i shld start by revising my sight read.

a girl in a pink flora dress was running after a fat jack russel who had a green ball in its mouth.
oooh but it sure can run and dart abt this bolster of a dog (yea it resembles a short and fat bolster)

she chased the dog round and round the dark living room, careful not to stumble over/ bang into the furniture while the master of the dog sat coolly in a corner, burning CDs on the comp.

dark, cos it was 9pm at nite and the only light shone from the lamp on the computer table.

"dun bother chasing it, u wun get its ball." said the master.
perhaps he has finally grown weary of the thudding and laughing sound coming frm behind him.

"im not trying to get its ball," said the girl, "im just chasing it for fun. cmon Chance, yoohoo!"

without warning, Chance jumped onto the girl and shoved its nose into her face and scurried away, still biting on to its green ball.
EEEEEEEEKS! she squealed and started wiping her mouth where Chance's wet nose has landed.

"wad happened?" the master asked in a pretty jaded voice, his eyes nv left the screen.

"your dog, it jumped on me!"
actually it wasnt abt the jumping, it was more of the wet nose but hell, she was too bz wiping her mouth to elaborate.

"do u wan to go wash up abit? she is quite smelly." the master turned to look at the girl.

"no its ok," she replied and rubbed her mouth vigourously with the back of her hand and catching a whiff of Chance's EDT (eau dog toilette) on her dress.

"yeah, it really stinks!" she whinced.

okies...im going off to watch troy now
tata

Try :: Macy Gray

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll keep my cool, but I'm feelin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

hush-a-bye
don't u cry
go to sleepy little baby
and when u wake
u shall have cake
and all the pretty little horses...

my favourite lullaby

summer stretching on the grass...summer dresses pass
in the shade of the willow tree, creeps a crawling over me
...
it's been a long hot summer
let's get undercover
don't try too hard to think...don't think at all

an apt song to describe my feelings now.

the days are so warm and slowwww
the air is so still and it becomes even more apparent at night..
and ive just been to abt everywhere and nowhere at the same time.

and im jobless this summer.
shoot.

been staring at the internship openings for a long time now and still cant decide on which companies to apply to.
hey, i can only apply to 2, must choose wisely, no?
its true, if you find a particular job interesting, most prob others will too.
and u end up with zillions of ppl fighting for 1 or 2 miserable vacancies.

wad shld i apply for?

Spin Network Pte Ltd
Position Title: Production Assistant
Type of Internship: Local
Department to be posted: Project Management
Expected Allowance(SGD): 600
Working Hours: 5 days per week, 9am to 6pm
Job Description and requirements:
A production assistant will assist the team of producers to brainstorm ideas, assist in all preparation for filming, copywriting and post production.

sounds like sai kang to me and even more sai kang than unusual pdtion.

Mount Elizabeth-Charter Behavioural Health Services Pte Ltd
Position Title: Marketing Executive 3
Type of Internship: Local
Department to be posted: -
Expected Allowance(SGD): 500
Working Hours: -
Job Description and requirements:
Event Management, Public Realations, MarComm ( brochures, newsletter, ads and etc.....)

sounds ok? but 500 abit little leh :x

ESTEE LAUDER COSMETICS PTE LTD
Position Title: HR Intern
Type of Internship: Local
Department to be posted: -
Expected Allowance(SGD): 540
Working Hours: -
Job Description and requirements:
- Executes human resources support activities
- Provides assistance in the areas of employee events or employee communications.
- Plans and administers staff or management training seminars for the organization.
- Records data and furnishes manpower reports

sounds ok too? 3 ppl applying for this 1 space..and counting perhaps

Suntec Singapore International Convention & Exhibition Centre
Position Title: Marcom Intern
Type of Internship: Local
Department to be posted: -
Expected Allowance(SGD): -
Working Hours: -
Job Description and requirements:
Assist in Marcom activities such as
- preparation of press kit,
- daily and monthly events schedule and planning,
- printing and updating of e-boards
- site inspection, etc.

sounds fun but not too related to my studies? and there are 9 ppl vying for this 1 space. anyway, today is the deadline for application.

howwwwwwwwww?

been spending a hell lotuv time with W this sem, comparatively of cos, to the rest of the previous sems.
we had 3 same classes in yr 1 but i dun even see him/ tok to him THIS much, much less hang out with him.
we kinda got closer in yr 2 and have actually been hanging out since.
surprise surprise?
and especially these few days as his gf is away on yep trip.
the chap hates/ cant stand being alone and he absolutely cannot imagine my life as an only child.

and he is super chatty.
which explains y he is and will be freakingly bored for the next few weeks to come.
1 week down and 2 more to go till his dearest returns from india.

which also explains y i have been feeding mozzies for the past few days.
as he had so matter of factly stated- im the only one of his frens who is not working.
not working= not having to wake up at ungodly hrs the following day= able to stay up late= good for drinking tea and chatting with until bedtime...his bedtime.
which is usually ard 4am or 5am or whenever it pleases him or when he is tired.

so ladies and gents, im the one he calls out in the middle of the nite for teas and chats and thus, he willingly zooms me to and fro in his white saab.

i have a meeting tmr at 10am
so? its 10am! :)

i dun think i can wake up for my swim tmr morning
[time check 2:35am
location: somewhere near tuas]
fcuk swimming lah! :)

everytime we meet, the agenda is the same.
(except for once we caught a midnight show and...yes the agenda followed as usual)

1. drinks, sometimes food at fong seng
2. take away a drink frm fong seng
3. off to west coast park to play
- climb the spiderweb, sit on top and yak
- lie on the nets under the stars and yak
- play on the swing and yak
- sit/ walk ard the park and yak

yak yak yak yak yak.

4. home sweet home

aint he tired of seeing me? aint he tired of sending me home?
but i dun blame him.
i am afterall, the only person (seems so) who is oh-so-free-and-zoubo-nvm-if-she-is-dull-i-can-do-a-one-man-show.

oh well, too much of something is bad.
i shld find some work to do.
dun get me wrong, its not tat i dun wan to meet up; im trying to save him frm an overdose of me.

and before i do get a job, let me get my hands on a car. ho hum.
all the better to meet up with him and the furher we can go too.
-waits for the day to come-

im in one of my moods again, throwing silly tantrums at random victims.
-counts her victims-
1...2...

not too bad.

-hides-

where are you?

alrite im going off now...to watch van helsing at 00:25
tata

these days,
i find it just so difficult to put my feelings down in black and white.

these days,
i contemplate the meaning of friendship

these days,
i wonder if my frens cld be right

these days,

these days.

i know ure bored
im bored too
sorry i made u all the more bored
sheesh -___-

yes, i love kylie minogue
and sophie ellis bexter too

i cant remember if i have washed my face.
i think not.
lemme check the toilet floor to see if its wet.

im stoned this morning.
cos its a weekend.
and wad do i do on weekends?
i hibernate at home.

but im going out today.

im gonna put on a nice dress, wear my slippery slippers, throw on a jacket and get myself squashed, stepped and elbowed along orchard rd.

cya guys. enjoy ur weekend.

recently, i kept recalling old, forgotten memories...
well, not exactly forgotten, if not, i wldnt have manage to recall them. hmmm.

firstly, on monday, i saw a familiar face on tv.
havent been watching much [tv] recently -esp ch5- and i happen to see the trailer for eye for a guy.
i tot a contestant look kinda familiar. he looks like someone i met at a birthday party.
we started chatting and after knowing i was in the same sch as the bday boy, he asked if i knew his cousin TDS.
yah i know TDS alrite, we have a working r/s and the conversation goes on.
he told me his name but i 4got.

anyway i soon 4got abt it until i saw eye for a guy.
monday night, i was at a camp.
we were having dinner and TDS was sitting with me at the same table.
and somehow it led to TDS asking the table, "oh anyone of u watch eye for a guy?"
and he said tat the contestant eugene is his cousin.

!!!

okaaaaaay.

and next, the hooha over mr.ng
abt him resigning over the IMO, stupid hit-a-student-with-a-book-in-a-fit-of-anger-incident.
anyway he was the vice principal of rvhs and indeed he left for nan chiao to become its principal.
i read the articles, saw the news and everyone reported tat he was a nice and dedicated principal.
well frankly...i dun rem much abt my sce sch days under his vp reign.
all i rem was tat he was in charge of concert band and i was in chinese orchestra back den.
he was kinda bias towards CB and have scolded us CO a few times. over wad, i dun remember.
anyway i think we changed our opinion towards him during a china trip.
CB, CO and dance went on a 10 day trip to china and the teachers in charge went too, naturally.
and i remembered he brought his little daughter along too and her name is amelia.
she was abt 10, 8? and wore a red jacket everyday (cos it was winter in china).
quite a cute little girl and her red jacket had a hood too.
i think he was quite nice during the trip and the CO peeps changed our opinions towards him.
and den he left for nan chiao.

and now this.

i wonder how is amelia now.

today is the 1st time yuyu msn-ed me.
not to chit chat but to inform me of some matters.

quite unexpected.

but we didnt say much cos he logged off soon after.

frankly, the more i interact with him (on, offline), the more i feel that he aint the one.

eventhough we are quite alike in some ways, some of his other character traits aint exactly appealing.
in fact, they are the bane when it comes to being my bf.
erm i know the above statement sounds abit funny rite now; he's not my bf but u get wad im trying to say yah?

i wld like to be with him but i cant imagine us being together
despite it, i still hope for the best between us.
ok im not hoping, im just anticipating.
oh man, i cant decide which is worse!

strange isnt it.

and i do have a feeling tat he is not interested in r/s at this point of time.
and if so, i duno why i even bother trying; trying to bring us closer together and hope tat something good comes out of it.

wad cld account for this bizzare, terribly irrational notion of mine?
being senseless is defintely not my forte.

well, i have come up with 2 analysis:
1) i am too stubborn to give him up
2) i really really like him

anyway he is becoming more and more of a fren to me.
and im glad this is so.
i really need to treat him like a fren.

a song i have posted here many times.
and each and everytime it was to describe my feelings towards 1 particular person :)
so here it is again:

Feelin' blue, while I'm trying to forget the feeling that I miss you
Feelin' green, when the jealousy swells and it won't go away in dreams

Feelin' yellow, I'm confused inside
A little hazy but mellow when I feel your eyes on me

Feelin' fine! Sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

Oh oh

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light, you're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

You make me colour blind

Feelin' red, when you spend all your time with your friends and not me instead
Feelin' black, when I think about all the things that I feel I lack

Feelin' jaded, when it's not gone right
All the colours have faded, then I feel your eyes on me

Feelin' fine! Sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

~Darius, COlourblind~

wah no way lar bash needs to be at some reputable clubs

reallie?
not even when organising the whole bash is free?

i sure hope u're not gay.

know wad i really really want on my birthday?
wad i really really want?

yay i finally bot my morgan de toi
90ml at $49.90 only
=)

omg omg omg
my finance prof is soooo nice!!
he agreed to let us bring in our notes and txtbk for the exams!
hahahaha yay
open book!

just a tot...
gary was asking us at the beginning of ethics class, wld we find ourselves more ethical at the end of 13 weeks..
and he was asking at the last class again, he really wans to know how we feel towards this course.
hes going to come up with some poll thingy.
well, i cant say im more ethical at the end of this class..
but it has provided me with different perspecticves towards ethical issues.
u know even natural resources, animals and plants have moral rights.
sheesh.

dun feel lk checking my sch email nor sas inbox.
let the claim forms biodegrade in the sa box.
let the claim forms collect dust in my file.
let everything wait.
let everyone wait.

i am so full of complaints everytime i think abt PIMP.

i think the sub comm did a crappy job in publicity.

firstly, there was miscommunication regarding budget.
sub comm thinks sas has money to burn but in actual fact, sas do not have a budget for this event.
and i duno y the hell nobody asked me abt the budget regarding PIMP.
u think others wld know better than me.
hey i am the financial controller, if i dun know abt the financial status of the club, no one else will.

next, they used photopaper to print the posters.
very good. very very good.
i dun see the need for photopapers.
and the thing is, they added effect on the photo, kinda blurred it..
so wads the point of printing it on photopaper??
and everyone tot that the printing company was lousy -_-
they printed postcards too.
not really necessay IMO.
and they printed...2000 pieces of tat.
printed many posters too.

and next, minute stuff but i think its important too.
they put the posters too high.
its not within eye level.
for someone standing at 1.67m (me), my eye level only takes in the bottom 1/5 of the poster.
wad the hell??
they have 6 sets of posters (5 individual shots and 1 grp pic) and they stuck all 5 individual shots together on one same wall...
wads the point man...

some more, some more...
this is the ultimate failure of any form of publicity.
up till now, many ppl still do not know what is this PIMP event all about..
posters are everywhere but there is no indication tat this PIMP is actually a sports bash.
i doubt if anyone knows that it is a bash in the 1st palce...

all the money spent on publicity.
all for nothing.

oh cool
this is cute
got to post this up hehehe
========================

The Sonnet
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)

Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?
Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.

Your exact opposite:
Genghis Khunt (Random Brutal Sex Master)

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.

ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth

CONSIDER: The Loverboy

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click here to take the test =)

pls let PIMP be a success.
sigh.

hmm looks like things are fine between me and yuyu afterall =)

-sings a happy song-

i cant stop smiling smiling smiling~
i cant stop smiling ever since he stepped into the room
i cant stop smiling eventho he called me an office girl
=D
i must look like an idiot, a smile plastered on my face the whole time.
luckily there was nobody to see me; moi sitting facing the wall

i asked fred is he can be my personal trainer and he said ok!
hahahahahaa yeaaaaaah
he asked me to go look for him when im ready.
erm ready to jian fei i assume
hehehehee

and i managed to persuade kw to give my club $8K
hahahahaha
the promised $5K by the old sa exco
the rollover of $2K odd from last yr
and since i canot rem the exact amt for the rollover, i asked kw to gimme $8K hahaha
$7K is undercutting us cos definitely more than $7K
he said $7.5K
and i said $8K
and he agreed buahahahaha~
it pays to be on gd terms with ppl ;p
anyway even with $7.5K, we are getting a good deal already
cos the rollover is just a little above $2K only kekeke

lalalalaaaa~

i hope i get my internship
there are things ive been meaning to buy:


supposed to be my 21st bday pressie -_-
im turning 22 soon =|


i wanna buy thissssss to replace my lost hp


i need a faster connection

yes, tonite is a stuffy nite indeed.
wadever happened to the winds in the afternoon?

hush-a-bye
don't you cry
go to sleepy lil baby
and when u wake
u shall have cake
and all the pretty lil horses

has anyone heard of this lullaby..?

ehem
sore throat.

i think girls nowadays are growing up too fast.
they dress so maturely; they out-dressed me any day!
or maybe i shldnt use myself as a benchmark.
maybe its me.
maybe i shld start dressing my age.
or act my age.
hmmmm...

but i like being childlike.
ok childlike or childish..there is a diff..
but i dun think any of u out there actually bother~
i dun care if ppl give me the -_- look whenever i get excited.

im 22 and im childlike!
and i like the way it is ;p

im waiting for my hair to grow longerrrrrr
im waiting for myself to get thinnerrrr

Zzz..

i wanna get broadband

i think ive fallen for diving -_-
i get so excited whenever i read or see some happening dive sites.

i wan to see my turtles and sharks and rays and dolphins and dugongs

If you're in love with somebody , but that person doesn't know...
tell her/him.
Maybe today, that person is also in love with you .
And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late .

If you still love a person that you think has forgetten you...
tell her/him.
Maybe that person have always loved you.
And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.
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It's been so long since we've talked
What can i do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can i say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let go
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If i don't try and i don't hope

No more waiting, no more, aching
No more fighting, no more, trying...
Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm

Because the power is not mine
Maybe there's nothing more to say
I'm just going to let it fly...
And in a funny way i'm calm

~the corrs~
~what can i do~

happy saturday everyone! =D

so glad im home on a nice saturday like this...
and i get to watch tv hehe
so happy
and when i reached home in the afternoon, it felt like a sunday...
cos im only home on sundays... -_-

sick and tired of travelling to and from sch...
i need a day like this..!
eventho i went sch for proj this morning, at least i have the rest of the day to myself

was looking thru my calander just now..
and i realised that all my project reports and presentations will be over this coming week!
yay~! =D

i hope i can finally start studying for my exams
i think im going mad...cos im actually happy over the fact tt i can start revision!

anyway..i plan to apply for internship this coming hols..
just in case i wanna go on the high octane trip in 2005

here are the details of the internship i plan to apply for:

Name of Organization: UnUsual Productions Pte Ltd
Position Title: Production Assistants
Type of Internship: Local
Department to be posted: Operations
Expected Allowance(SGD): 600
Working Hours: 5.5 days per week, 10 am to 6 pm
Start Date 26/04/2004
End Date 15/08/2004

seems fun..but period of attachment freakin long!

i just smsed yuyu =>
tat was my firrrrrrssssst time smsing him =)

and his reply was instantaneous! =D

well, who cares if the sms was solely for "business" purpose...

im still happy~

at least for awhile..
b4 it died down...
and reality sets in...

somebody murdered my flower!!

its stem was snapped in the middle!!

*screams bloody murder*

the day i lost my finance textbook part iv - final chapter

anyway i found my textbook in the end..
cos there are a few lost and found areas in my sch..
sa room, general office and the fire command center.

i found it in the fire command center.
in case u guys are wondering, its a place where the sercurity guards work..
with lots of surveillance thingy and control panels.
a guard found it yest when he was making his rounds.

so i called him up and told him tat i found my book.
he apologised on icq again, saying he felt really bad and offered to buy me a drink next time.

yayaya
he's forever buying me drinks.
and he nv does.
-_-

the day i lost my finance textbook part III

wei..

yesh?

i cant find it.
its not in the class...

did u go to the office to find?

yah...i went to justin's office but he said he did not see the textbook.

did u go to level 3?

yah lah level 3...

den? dun have?

the general office? no i nv go there.
can i go tmr?

tmr???

yah cos i just reached home.

huh? u just reached home?

yah im now at the lobby of my hse.

u drove down just to find my book?

i took a taxi.

oh.
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all of a sudden, i dun feel so mad afterall.
how to?
at least he was truely apologetic abt it.
it was his off day today and he bothered to make a trip to sch just to find my book.

the day i lost my finance textbook part II

sms: u in sch today? can i have my finance bk back?
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can u believe it?
i left ur finance txtbk in the car

in the car?
its ok wad, just pass it to me lah
u not driving to sch today meh?

nono!
i left ur finance txtbk in the CLASS!

u wad?!

i 4got to take!
i left it on the table!
im going to find now.
if i canot find den i buy u back one ok?

the book's not mine loh...
its my fren's fren's.

from smu?

no...outside

okok den i pay ur fren back k.

its not abt the money loh.
the books not mine..
and the book has notes inside.
the reason y my fren's fren is keeping her txtbk cos she plans to major in finance next time.

i tot u said ur fren from outside?

yah lah...outside ppl canot major finance issit?

okok.
im going back to the class to find it now k
if i cant find it den i pay ur fren back k.

see how 1st loh..
i tell me fren and see wad she says..
maybe she dun wan the txtbk anymore and u just pay her the money...

nono!
dun tell ur fren 1st!
u let me go find the book for u 1st!

yah lah...u cant find den i tell her

okok i go find now
if i cant find the book, let me get a replacement one for u 1st k, den after that i buy one back for u.

no need lah, i can settle it myself.....

no let me find a replacement for u, i really feel bad abt it.

ok..den u call me back later and tell me if u find it...
call me whether u find it or not.

yah ok sure
byebye.

bye......
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was so damn pissed off man.
tts wad i get for trying to be nice.
>_<

the day i lost my finance textbook part I

are you in sch?

not yet, y?

shit!
i have a finance test quiz and i 4got to bring my txtbook! (open book quiz)
i left it on my table and i forgot to bring it out!

i have finance txtbk.
its in my locker.

can lend me?
can lend me?

can, its in my locker.

how to open ur locker?!
i duno how to open the locker!
i nv open the lockers here b4!

... ...

nvm i get someone who knows to open it for me.
wads ur locker num?

73.

where issit? at the left side or right of biz?

at the audi side.

shit. at the wrong side of the sch...
issit a big one or small one?

the yellow one.

okok.
wads ur locker num?

73....
the combination is...AB

AB..

CD...

CD...

EF...

EF...
AB-CD-EF?

yes.

okok thanks!
if i see u in sch tmr i return u.

ok can.
byebye

byebye!
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and when we hung up, i realised it was 10:18am..
he was already late for class.

luxuries...

1) to have breakfast leisurely and have the whole day free to do wadever i wan
2) to listen to good music at nite and not have sch the next days and so forth ;)
3) to shop w/o feeling stressed..aka no naggy feeling at the back of my head
4) watch movie
5) rot in a cafe...pacific coffee at raffles link~ my fav rotting place..

the list is correct as of today

todae..was not a very good day for me..

first, i didnt know how to do my qm test
i tried to copy but the prof was standing near me
shoot -_-

i tried to avoid yuyu by not taking the same lift with him; i took the stairs instead.
but i bumped into him on my way to the lib...grrrrr...
where was he when i was dyinggggg to see him?
and now tt i dun really wan to see him...i see him twice a day -_-
gaaaaah
i gave him a fake and kinda loud hello.
im sure i was expressionless..oh well..
didnt know wad got into me..
despite all these, i still miss him u know..
eventho they say u cant lose wad u nv had...i cant help feeling a sense of loss...
sometimes when i hear footsteps behind me or catch a glimsp of someone behind me..
i wld think tt tat wld be him
and i wld wait...and wait for the cheerful hello which nv came
i still duno if there was anything special between us...
but if u ask me, i wld say an unbashful yes
and i wld also say tat it was becos of my coldness towards him tt marred all chances of us becoming anything more..
den again, my 6th sense is nv right...

and..i got caught in the rain..
not really..but i had to go for a pool study at the accountancy blk..
and there was no shelter frm biz to acc blk and i had to shelter myself with my jacket and it got all wet.
yea the rain was heavy loh..i got wet together with the jacket :and when i got into the lift, i came out at the 3rd level when in fact im supposed to go to level 7
that was the 2nd time this day i exited frm the lift without checking..
earlier this afternoon, i had wanted to go level 3 at wing b and i actually got out of the lift at level 2 -_-
no one was in the room as i was early...so i went to the loo and tried to dry myself..in vain of cos..
and when i came out , the whole world came and everyone was waiting for me..
great. when did they appear? i was only in the loo for less than 5min...

whole dae felt kinda lousy cos of qm..
and i realised i lost the star pendant frm my charm bracelet...
i dun even know when i lost it..
-sad-
i love the little star on my bracelet =(
i keep losing things which are dear to me recently...
first there was my hp...den yuyu...den my star pendant

i just felt very alone for the whole of today..
nobody to tok to eventho i was surrounded by ppl...
not tt i did not say a word the whole time..
maybe i shld put it this way...nobody to tell to eventho i was surrounded by ppl..
cos everyone is bogged by his/her own prob(s)...it wldnt be fair for me to complain...cos im not the only one...

so i shld just tell my bloggie and everyone can read abt it and leave some nice comments for me..at their own free time..

its a rainy day and the sun will shine
its a rainy day, its a rainy day-eee-aye-eee-ayeee

does anyone rem this dance track?

rainy day today
hmmm..

QuiEstLa^ (2:01 AM) :
as much as i hope things will go my way, apparently its not going to be so..

QuiEstLa^ (2:03 AM) :
many times i do not wan to accept the fact
and there are also times when i tot i have come to terms with it..

QuiEstLa^ (2:06 AM) :
i duno how i shld react
im stubborn to let go
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was lying on my bed and thinking abt the same old qn for the Nth time.
i think god has been very patient with me; i have been pretty irritating, keep asking him the same qn again and again.
and i marvel at the way he chose to ans my qn..
saf says, "yes..he's the most creative being ever....He created everything...so, yea.. he's got a lot of means to get to u"

it actually took me 3mths to get an answer.
im quite convinced tt i have gotten a reply.

yes, no and wait.
the ans is no.

i feel bad...i feel so small...
i think i behaved very badly towards the whole bash thingy.
i think i over reacted towards the subcomm.

it just shows that i am not composed and calm enough.
i shld have been more understanding.
i still have a long way to go.

im having mixed feelings towards a fren.

many ppl dislike him for his sarcasm and errr..
basically, they feel lk beating him up.
you get the picture.

i think i must be the only one who finds him bearable.

i realised i can be swayed easily when it comes to judging ppl.
well, its a bad thing to be judgemental in the first place anyway.
i am guilty of it.

my fren says he doesnt judge; how does he do it, i do not know.
or maybe it is really ez not to judge other.
just like its ez for someone not to bitch, gossip, swear etc; i shld not impose my ideas on others.

so how wld u like a promotion?

i duno.

i dun wanna feel
the way tat i do
i just wanna be
rite here with you
i dun wanna see
see us apart
i just wanna say it straight frm my heart:
i miss you

saw u across the road today.

and i realised how much i miss u.

i miss ur smile
i miss ur hellos
i miss our lil chats

i had always treasured our small toks and the minute times we had
but wad happened?
i guess i took ur presence for granted.
its true; u nv knew wad u had until its gone
i almost 4got how u have always made my day.
i 4got how happy i felt whenever i saw you.

ive been so silly.

feelin very depressed.
i got zero for my qm test.

2 qns, each 10 marks.
1st qn didnt know how to do..
10 marks gone..
anyway many ppl didnt know how to do qn 1 cos its kinda tuff..
the prof said it was ok..
but 2nd qn was super duper ez...
and i had to make a careless mistake

very good.
so its another 10 marks gone and im left with nothing.

im the only idiot who got zero.

quiz 1 20% - 0 for me
quiz 2 20% - not yet quiz 2
class participation 10% - 0 too cos i only made like 3,4 comments in class..dun think he even remembers
final paper 50% - always a killer paper

how to pass u tell me.

i hate sch all of a sudden.
i hate sas; i wish i were out.

my cousin went army today.
sigh.

but good lah, he can lose some weight and become YD
eheheheee..

im dying im dying im dying
im dying im dying im dying
im dying im dying im dying
im dying im dying im dying
im dying im dying im dying
im dying im dying im dying
im dying im dying im dying
im dying im dying im dying
im dying im dying im dying
im dying im dying im dying

im stressed im stressed im stressed
im stressed im stressed im stressed
im stressed im stressed im stressed
im stressed im stressed im stressed
im stressed im stressed im stressed
im stressed im stressed im stressed
im stressed im stressed im stressed
im stressed im stressed im stressed
im stressed im stressed im stressed
im stressed im stressed im stressed

ARRGGHHHH ARRGGHHHH
ARRGGHHHH ARRGGHHHH
ARRGGHHHH ARRGGHHHH

i lost my hp.

okaaaaaay.
work is really piling up.
think i need to stay back in sch at least 1 or 2 days to clear some stuff up.

the 1st budgeting period is coming to an end and i realised that 7 clubs have yet to touch their funds.
my yuyu's club for instance is one of them.
just wondering how come he (or his treasurer) has yet to approach me regarding claims.
doesnt he need to pay for IVP coaching fees?
eventho his IVP was last yr but its still within this budgeting period.
so...unless he already paid the coach using the previous budget or they have no coach at all.

duno duno duno.

in any case, i hope he approaches me regarding the claim and not his treasurer :|
im waiting for his claims but im not too hopeful.
frankly, i think the claims are not coming.

i finally saw yuyu again in sch yest.

no prizes for guessing how i reacted in front of him.
yes i did it again.
wadever tat is stopping me frm being cheerful around him- pls go away.

i am waiting for us to be together.
im not doing anything; im just waiting.

but how come i feel tt our friendship is going down the toilet bowl?
things have changed and i do feel it.
and i blame myself for it.

aiyo.

went for diving intro course today.
sounds like a very dangerous sport >_<

u must learn how to clear ur face mask if water gets into it while diving.
wad do u do if u run out of air while diving?
wad happens if ur equip gets tangled up? u must know how to untangle it and wear it back.

aiyo.

random raves and rants

i wish i cld play the piano.
i wish i had some talent.

the lights went off in my room.
im typing under my table lamp.
good ol lamp.
u were always here when i didnt need u and u r also here when i needed u most.

was chatting with W this afternoon.
frm where we were sitting, there was this banner and the letters "ociation" were being blocked by a pillar.
the bannar was supposed to read "students' association"

btw W had no car today.
oh man, i missed watching him go home.
i wonder how he did tt.
took a cab i presume.

i am not close to W btw.
maybe some of u may find it hard to believe but its true.
are u one of them too, who tot tt W and i are pretty close?
mebbe u wld like to enlighten me on this.
wad makes u feel this way?

a fren once told me, the most romantic and sweetest thing (in her opinion of cos) a guy can do for a girl is to help her put on her shoe.
scenario:
girl sitting on a wall/tree/somewhere relatively high.
girl drops her shoe but is unable to retrieve it.
guy picks up the shoe and put it on for her becos she cant wear it by herself for 1001 reasons.
i keep imagining the shoe to be a red maryjane.
but den if it was a maryjane, it wldnt have fallen off in the 1st place...
she must be swinging her feet very violently hahaha

am freakin nua and unmotivated these days.
been this way ever since i came back frm cambodia.
yaya attribute everything to cambodia.

say hello to my smoking rabbit
(\/)
(._.)y-~

diving lessons - $380 (after a $50 discount)
i heard it is the same price if i were to go with smux.

wakeboarding - $41.67 (boat rental of $250 shared between 6 ppl)
and not to mention cab fare to punggol marina.

rock climbing orientation course - $15 (registering thru fren, tts y cheaper)
well, think i wld go if there are still vacancies.
anybody wanna go with me?
this sunday 22nd feb.
near tanjong pagar.
keppel tower rock gym =)
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oh just realised i cant go wakeboarding..cos my 2nd diving theory lesson coincides with it.
and just maybe i cant make it for the rock climbing too
ho hum.

Oooo i really like the new motorola V878
saw it on the papers
just let me see the real thing 1st and check out the price yah ;p
anyway, think i will be getting it at the end of the yr when my contract ends
so i shall get my digicam 1st hee

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and if tat day is not enuff
den mebbe we can stay in touch
but im not making plans for tmr
for tmr
nv comes

arkarna - so little time

i have quite decided to bring my laptop along when i go vietnam.
so i can upload all the photos taken and record the day's happenings in ms words. and i shall transfer them to a new blog and put a link to it frm my poppycorn.
think id be abandoning my hp in sg again.
dun miss me dahling hee

my fren has a gig tonite and he asked me to go down.
no loh, sorry.
only if i had a car.
speaking of car, i wld only be getting my own car (yes, my own car) after i graduate and get a job.
this is the compromise between me and my parents.
they gonna put the down payment for me and i have to pay off the car on my own.

oh well..im bored again..

i must remember not to celebrate vday in the future.
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i am sooooooo bored now and i cant sleep but nobody is free to talk to me =(
everyone is sooo bz =(
-weeps-

feeling so nua..
-wobbles like a jelly-

where have all my motivation gone?!

comeeeeeeee baaaaaaaaaack~~~~~

oh dear.
i feel so guilty =(

i must remember to be more cheerful the next time yuyu greets me.
i duno wads wrong with me..
been showing him an ultra bored face recently.

im glad he hasnt stop saying hi to me becos of this.
i think its quite demoralising to say hello to someone who doesnt show half as much enthusiam as you do.

i duno wads wrong with me.

i cant bring myself to treat him the way i used to.
something is holding me back.
i think im still disappointed over the fact tt things are not gonna work out between us.

but how can i bring myself to be cold towards someone as warm and cheery as he is?
see, im starting to feel guilty already :(

i must get over myself.
not get over him but get over myself.
tis the only way i can face him proper again.

i duno when i'll see him again..

i only hope there is enuff time...before he totally gives up on me.

i think i still like him a lil...shhhhhhh~

alrite, i have finally decided to go jogging every tues, thurs and friday morning.
3 times every week.

eventho i do prefer jogging in the evenings and i treasure time spent with sleep monster but this is the only way to juggle between sch work and my everlasting quest to look gd.

anyway i may just cultivate a healthy lifestyle this way.
all my healthy living frm prey veng days are dead and gone.
i cant wake up early anymore; shld i say, i cant wake up feeling fresh anymore.
i cant bath in cold water
and i cant stand the chilly winds anymore.
oh well.

i seriously shld start my revision now.
i mean NOW.
been wasting away due to the following reasons:
1) no home room

ok, so there is only 1 reason.
ok..i tot we wanna book gsr21?
hellooooooooooo? when are we gonna book it huh?!
i really wan a room b4 the cows come home...

things to do:
- pack my room
- apply for campus card
- get a nice music box for fren's extremely belated bdae

i cant wait for the hols to come
not to play but to revise all my work

just had my CAT and Finance quiz.
2 down, 2 more to go.
Marketing tmr and QM on wed.
and the next Finance quiz is...next week...

hoho.

have not been sleeping much for the past few days.
all the assignments to be done, all the quizzes to be taken.
have been sleeping after 3am for days...

sunday night, i felt lk giving up.
heck.
skip finance, skip cat.
heck the assignments and quizzes.
just stay at home and sleep on mon.

but..

i still went for classes at 8.30am.
i even woke up at 6:30am, which is something i havent done for a really looong time.
(cos i need to pack my bag)
i trudged to sch...slept abit on the bus and took a slow leisurely walk to evans.
in plenty of good time for the test.
i even helped the prof set up name tags and chatted a little with him.

was so tired the night b4, i was literally dead when i hit the sheets.
was doing cat assignment at the comp for so long; i saw black patches appearing in front of me.
-shudder-

but at least i know i did my cat assignment well.
quite sure that i got all 4 qns correct.
only thing is tt, i cheated a little for qn 1.
i didnt think i cld spot the error in my formula anymore, so i just broke the formula up into parts instead of trying to stuff all the arguements into 1 cell.

just this morning, i didnt think i cld make it past cat class.
i seriously tot of going home after the test.
and in the end, i sat thru all my 2 classes, handed in all my assignments, took all my quizzes.

it wasnt so bad afterall.

so proud of myself.

at least for today.