just saw it on the news, someone died while diving in aur.
and my mom started to nag at me again.

i guess no one will ever know what happened except for the unfortunate diver himself, bless his soul.

there are many, many fatalities in the open waters but not all deaths were reported.
and lives were also lost when my dive operator conducted lessons in the past.
i guess i was a little shocked when i first realised the fact but i guess it is inevitable for such things to happen, since diving does involve a certain level of risk.

i guessed id rather not find out and keep thinking that they have a perfect track record.
its not tat i have lost faith in them but somehow...well, id remember.

but it wun become and obstacle for me to go diving.

let me count the monies i made this hols:

$55 from my AC Nielsen recep job
$60 from IEC
grand total= $115

not a very grand grand total but id build it up slowly.
need to bug those ppl who can gimme work.
got to save up for vietnam trip!

btw i have no reservations about working for frens ya know.
as long as they pay me well ;)

this feels weird!

i was reading my old entires and i cant believe the things i wrote down!

its like reading off someone else's blog; the style of writing, the emotions involved all seem so alien!

gosh, its my blog, my entires, my babies! [drama]
and i dun recognize them at all! [drama again]

and some entires were really interesting, such a waste to be in the dead & gone section.
many entires abt yuyu hee
many entires abt how sch is making my life a complete hell...ok sch's not tat bad...how sch is making my life miserable hahaha
and surprise surprise, many entires abt him too.

who?

the person who has been taking advantage of my availability of cos, who else?
-roll eyes-

and i have to admit, i do have happy times with him.
my entries tell all; they dun lie.
i felt happier when we hung out together in sch.
so y are things the way they are now?

too much of something is indeed bad.
we hung out sparringly during sch term but this almost-consecutive-days of hanging out during hols is really too much.

i hate archery.
i hate the president.

they NEVER turn up for meetings, NEVER bother to reply emails...
but oh so quick in demanding for more budget
i bet they know nuts about wads going on in the sports fraternity now.

and they hand in ultra sloppy claim forms.

wad the shit??!
ive got a good mind to throw the damn form back at them.
at him actually, the president.

i seriously think i shld get some work done this hols!
i cant stand myself anymore; im freakin rotting my life away!

i need to pick up books again- im getting stupid, i can feel it.

i need to get my biological clock back on track once more- no more late nites, im gonna hit the sheets at 10pm or 10:30pm latest.
beauty sleep is essential, gotta do some damage control yah?!
oust those dark rings and bad complexion!! tho i do think my dark rings are cronic.
damn. -_-

i need to start picking up the pieces.
all my finance work left aside for far too long.
need to get everything back on track!

and and and...
the num one thing i shld do for all times!
shall i do a drum roll? teehee!

but nah.
everyone knows already for god's sake!

to lose weight!
wad else?! ;p

i realised alot of guys are afraid of cockroaches and/or lizards.

i hate cockroaches and spray insecticide on them from far. i stamp my feet to chase lizards away.

cockroaches scare me- they fly ard. i leave lizards alone- they get rid of mosquitoes.

im a little afraid of cockroaches but i usualyy work up enough courage to kill them with insecticide. lizards are another question though. im afraid of them, either i run away or i spray them with lots of insecticide and hope they die.

fail.

just wasted half my life away, arguing with someone abt how money shld be allocated to the clubs.

the argument was stupid becos:

1) both of us have extremely differing views and neither is able to win the other over nor willing to reconcile the differences.

2) fledging sas is abt to spread its wings and fly away from the sa. we wun be depending on worms frm sa now; we fight for our fair share of worms with sa (especially sa) and the other cbds.

3) i wun be fc in the future and he might not even run for sa. if so, y were we arguing?

sheesh -_- wad a waste of time and energy; all tat anger.

operation brownie failed.



tata brownie, i hope u find a good home.

interested?
ask me abt adopting brownie.
or read below to know more first:

excerpts from email
"Dear all,

I am appealing for fosterers or a permanent home for Brownie, a one year plus female mongrel.

My friend and I first found Brownie at Simei, roaming the compounds of PetSafari. She was affectionate despite it being our first meeting. We decided we wanted to help this dog with the most trusting eyes. After being rehomed, she was sent to a farm without our knowledge. We made a trip to the farm and seeing how contented she was getting the full run of the place, we decided to leave her there even though we were initally against the idea.

Unfortunately, during our last visit, we found out that she has been tied up to a pole for the past two weeks. The people at the farm were willing to let her go and Brownie is now putting up at my place. So far, i've had no complains, save for that over affectionate tongue and her propeller-like wagging tail. Behaviour: Excellent. Taught her basic commands like 'Sit','Down' and 'Up' effortlessly. Eliminates on grass. Sterilised. Not fussy with food. No known health problems as of April 2004.

As great a companion as she is, parents will be parents. My mom is adamant about NOT having two dogs in the house and I'm afraid Brownie's deadline is drawing near. I sincerely hope for someone to step forward to offer a temporary/ permanent home for the sweetest dog i've met,out of the countless dogs i've had encounters with. A mongrel she may be, but she's got a heart bigger than many of the dogs i know. I appeal for someone to step forward for a chance to fall in love with this dog I refuse to put on the streets. Give Brownie a chance, please do not dismiss her until you've met her ... ..."

ive met brownie and yes, she is every bit as described in the email.

this is so upsetting num 2.

i still canot get my maxonline to work

and i just wasted half my freakin life away
*pek chek*

this is so upsetting.
i cant get my maxonline to work.

connected to local network at 100mbps but i cant go online.
i think its becos the bytes sent and received are waaaaaay too low.

i get that when i use dialup sometimes.

and my modem, the 'standby' button is not working.
wad the hell?
its a f**king new one!
grrrrrrrrr!

i applied for the following today:

1) uob mini debit card.
jel:: they told me 2 weeks to process...hmmm how come they told u 1mth?

2) maxonline1500
and under their promotion package, i am entitled to one freebie:
- modem
- wireless router
- mp3 player

i opted for the modem; it seems like the more practical choice eventhough i wld love the router or mp3 palyer.

just got a letter from uob, asking me to sign up for their mini debit card.

hey they can read my mind!
they have saved me the trouble of going down to the bank.
shall fill up the form and send it over instead teehee.

i cant wait to get my hands on the mini card!
but i heard they take a long time to process.
sheesh (-_-")

alrite, im finally done with my new layout after hrs of hardwork.
seems dumb tat it took me such a long time to come up with this simple design.
but hey i drew it by hand man (on paper) and used dreamweaver to help do the layout.
damnit i spent more than 6hrs on this?
but gimme a break cos im a perfectionist (all the previewing and fine tuning) and i dun really know much abt html codes.
those miserable codes i know didnt really help much.
well, i cant say i am very happy with it...it cld be better but i really duno the codes so i cant make changes.
looks like id have to live with the shortcomings :|

wads new in this blog:
basically, nothing.

i removed the comment boxes cos it really hurts to see nobody writing stuff inside.
sobz.
and i brought back the chatterbox!!
i know everyone misses it awwwwwwww :D
so is everyone happy now?
i oso brought back my bday calander haha but different script this time round.
this script is better! can count down to any stuff under the sun, not just bday! ;p
but as u can see, i still choose to countdown till my bday yah?
hinty hinty hinty!
ehehehee

and y on earth did i put this pic on my blog?
got this off the billabong website...
as motivation to lose wt, wad else?
hahaha!

"i wanna lose wt! i wanna be like those sufer girls on the billabong website!"
"... u need lots of discipline to get those kind of bod."
"yea i know...its ok, id achieve it one day and i'll look like those billabong sufer girls!! yeah man!"
"u wan to model for billabong? but in china lah."
"will i get paid?"
"yea i believe so."
"how much?"
"abt 400?"
"rmb?"
"yah."
"!!!"

hahaha
great bod great bod great bod great bod
-chants-

i miss my days in the orchestra.

i miss practising.

i miss performing.

the urge to play again has nv been stronger; i wonder y.
maybe the monotony of the hols is finally getting into me.

no job, no life.
and ppl are abusing my availability.
more like 'someone' actually *rolls eyes*

i feel like picking up my bow once more.

maybe i shld start by revising my sight read.

a girl in a pink flora dress was running after a fat jack russel who had a green ball in its mouth.
oooh but it sure can run and dart abt this bolster of a dog (yea it resembles a short and fat bolster)

she chased the dog round and round the dark living room, careful not to stumble over/ bang into the furniture while the master of the dog sat coolly in a corner, burning CDs on the comp.

dark, cos it was 9pm at nite and the only light shone from the lamp on the computer table.

"dun bother chasing it, u wun get its ball." said the master.
perhaps he has finally grown weary of the thudding and laughing sound coming frm behind him.

"im not trying to get its ball," said the girl, "im just chasing it for fun. cmon Chance, yoohoo!"

without warning, Chance jumped onto the girl and shoved its nose into her face and scurried away, still biting on to its green ball.
EEEEEEEEKS! she squealed and started wiping her mouth where Chance's wet nose has landed.

"wad happened?" the master asked in a pretty jaded voice, his eyes nv left the screen.

"your dog, it jumped on me!"
actually it wasnt abt the jumping, it was more of the wet nose but hell, she was too bz wiping her mouth to elaborate.

"do u wan to go wash up abit? she is quite smelly." the master turned to look at the girl.

"no its ok," she replied and rubbed her mouth vigourously with the back of her hand and catching a whiff of Chance's EDT (eau dog toilette) on her dress.

"yeah, it really stinks!" she whinced.

okies...im going off to watch troy now
tata

Try :: Macy Gray

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll keep my cool, but I'm feelin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

hush-a-bye
don't u cry
go to sleepy little baby
and when u wake
u shall have cake
and all the pretty little horses...

my favourite lullaby

summer stretching on the grass...summer dresses pass
in the shade of the willow tree, creeps a crawling over me
...
it's been a long hot summer
let's get undercover
don't try too hard to think...don't think at all

an apt song to describe my feelings now.

the days are so warm and slowwww
the air is so still and it becomes even more apparent at night..
and ive just been to abt everywhere and nowhere at the same time.

and im jobless this summer.
shoot.

been staring at the internship openings for a long time now and still cant decide on which companies to apply to.
hey, i can only apply to 2, must choose wisely, no?
its true, if you find a particular job interesting, most prob others will too.
and u end up with zillions of ppl fighting for 1 or 2 miserable vacancies.

wad shld i apply for?

Spin Network Pte Ltd
Position Title: Production Assistant
Type of Internship: Local
Department to be posted: Project Management
Expected Allowance(SGD): 600
Working Hours: 5 days per week, 9am to 6pm
Job Description and requirements:
A production assistant will assist the team of producers to brainstorm ideas, assist in all preparation for filming, copywriting and post production.

sounds like sai kang to me and even more sai kang than unusual pdtion.

Mount Elizabeth-Charter Behavioural Health Services Pte Ltd
Position Title: Marketing Executive 3
Type of Internship: Local
Department to be posted: -
Expected Allowance(SGD): 500
Working Hours: -
Job Description and requirements:
Event Management, Public Realations, MarComm ( brochures, newsletter, ads and etc.....)

sounds ok? but 500 abit little leh :x

ESTEE LAUDER COSMETICS PTE LTD
Position Title: HR Intern
Type of Internship: Local
Department to be posted: -
Expected Allowance(SGD): 540
Working Hours: -
Job Description and requirements:
- Executes human resources support activities
- Provides assistance in the areas of employee events or employee communications.
- Plans and administers staff or management training seminars for the organization.
- Records data and furnishes manpower reports

sounds ok too? 3 ppl applying for this 1 space..and counting perhaps

Suntec Singapore International Convention & Exhibition Centre
Position Title: Marcom Intern
Type of Internship: Local
Department to be posted: -
Expected Allowance(SGD): -
Working Hours: -
Job Description and requirements:
Assist in Marcom activities such as
- preparation of press kit,
- daily and monthly events schedule and planning,
- printing and updating of e-boards
- site inspection, etc.

sounds fun but not too related to my studies? and there are 9 ppl vying for this 1 space. anyway, today is the deadline for application.

howwwwwwwwww?

been spending a hell lotuv time with W this sem, comparatively of cos, to the rest of the previous sems.
we had 3 same classes in yr 1 but i dun even see him/ tok to him THIS much, much less hang out with him.
we kinda got closer in yr 2 and have actually been hanging out since.
surprise surprise?
and especially these few days as his gf is away on yep trip.
the chap hates/ cant stand being alone and he absolutely cannot imagine my life as an only child.

and he is super chatty.
which explains y he is and will be freakingly bored for the next few weeks to come.
1 week down and 2 more to go till his dearest returns from india.

which also explains y i have been feeding mozzies for the past few days.
as he had so matter of factly stated- im the only one of his frens who is not working.
not working= not having to wake up at ungodly hrs the following day= able to stay up late= good for drinking tea and chatting with until bedtime...his bedtime.
which is usually ard 4am or 5am or whenever it pleases him or when he is tired.

so ladies and gents, im the one he calls out in the middle of the nite for teas and chats and thus, he willingly zooms me to and fro in his white saab.

i have a meeting tmr at 10am
so? its 10am! :)

i dun think i can wake up for my swim tmr morning
[time check 2:35am
location: somewhere near tuas]
fcuk swimming lah! :)

everytime we meet, the agenda is the same.
(except for once we caught a midnight show and...yes the agenda followed as usual)

1. drinks, sometimes food at fong seng
2. take away a drink frm fong seng
3. off to west coast park to play
- climb the spiderweb, sit on top and yak
- lie on the nets under the stars and yak
- play on the swing and yak
- sit/ walk ard the park and yak

yak yak yak yak yak.

4. home sweet home

aint he tired of seeing me? aint he tired of sending me home?
but i dun blame him.
i am afterall, the only person (seems so) who is oh-so-free-and-zoubo-nvm-if-she-is-dull-i-can-do-a-one-man-show.

oh well, too much of something is bad.
i shld find some work to do.
dun get me wrong, its not tat i dun wan to meet up; im trying to save him frm an overdose of me.

and before i do get a job, let me get my hands on a car. ho hum.
all the better to meet up with him and the furher we can go too.
-waits for the day to come-

im in one of my moods again, throwing silly tantrums at random victims.
-counts her victims-
1...2...

not too bad.

-hides-

where are you?

alrite im going off now...to watch van helsing at 00:25
tata

these days,
i find it just so difficult to put my feelings down in black and white.

these days,
i contemplate the meaning of friendship

these days,
i wonder if my frens cld be right

these days,

these days.

i know ure bored
im bored too
sorry i made u all the more bored
sheesh -___-

yes, i love kylie minogue
and sophie ellis bexter too

i cant remember if i have washed my face.
i think not.
lemme check the toilet floor to see if its wet.

im stoned this morning.
cos its a weekend.
and wad do i do on weekends?
i hibernate at home.

but im going out today.

im gonna put on a nice dress, wear my slippery slippers, throw on a jacket and get myself squashed, stepped and elbowed along orchard rd.

cya guys. enjoy ur weekend.