today is the 1st time yuyu msn-ed me.
not to chit chat but to inform me of some matters.

quite unexpected.

but we didnt say much cos he logged off soon after.

frankly, the more i interact with him (on, offline), the more i feel that he aint the one.

eventhough we are quite alike in some ways, some of his other character traits aint exactly appealing.
in fact, they are the bane when it comes to being my bf.
erm i know the above statement sounds abit funny rite now; he's not my bf but u get wad im trying to say yah?

i wld like to be with him but i cant imagine us being together
despite it, i still hope for the best between us.
ok im not hoping, im just anticipating.
oh man, i cant decide which is worse!

strange isnt it.

and i do have a feeling tat he is not interested in r/s at this point of time.
and if so, i duno why i even bother trying; trying to bring us closer together and hope tat something good comes out of it.

wad cld account for this bizzare, terribly irrational notion of mine?
being senseless is defintely not my forte.

well, i have come up with 2 analysis:
1) i am too stubborn to give him up
2) i really really like him

anyway he is becoming more and more of a fren to me.
and im glad this is so.
i really need to treat him like a fren.