im very lonely now!

at times like these, i wished i had lil jix or muffy with me...

do i still want a digicam?
pretty much i guess, after looking at the little photos others posted on their blogs.
i can take lots n lots of pictures whenever, wherever i wan.
den i can post em up =)

i wished i had a car.
i cld drive myself ard when im bored...
like...now...

i wld like a nice pair of sporty shades too.
to go with my car.
addidas or billabong.
or any nice ones.
a nice pair with really dark or reflective lens.
a nice pair with contured frame tt sits on my nose perfectly.

i wan to be...thin...

the rooftop was lovely.
the weather was lovely.
the night scenery was lovely.
the food not so lovely.

but the company was lovely.

suddenly felt a tinge of sadness when i saw u.
i wished things didnt have to turn out this way between u and me.

i got my locker today!
eventho its far from civilization, at least its at the highest level, quite a comfortable height for me.

i got my driving license today!
it took them 1 week to deliver it to my hse.
and my mom did not hear the postman when it came with my registered mail and i had to collect it today instead of yest.
but no matter :)
actually, it does.
im eager to see it. hee.

i got my last 1.5 modules today!
i shld, after looking at the amt i bidded on them...
Negoitation - min bid 11, bidded 20
and Psychology - min bid 11, bidded 18

i got 2 more facilitators pics today!
nice nice, the ones we took at the launch of the new student lounge
shall i post them up? =)
hehe its always so small and blur but it does add colour to my blog!

its (touch rugby) just like playing tag.

well, its for girls mah, guys play contact rugby.

i think its a dumb game.
(pauses)
well, not that contact makes it any less dumber.

are u trying to impose ur high and mighty standards on me or are u just trying to make me dislike you more?
btw, u dun really have to try, u get wad i mean.
i dun think anyone asked for your opinion in the 1st place.

i like playing dumb games, so wat?

i think u shld just keep quiet and trrrrry salvage ur image k.
personally i feel tt its beyond hope.
u succeeded in making every girl (i said girl cos i duno abt the guys) dislike u within the 1st few hrs of meeting.

wad can i say?

peace.
i shall hold my tongue for now.
u shld too but for a longer period of time.
i suggest an eternity.

no, make tt 2.
or 3.

i feel...
sleepy, but i cant seem to fall asleep

i feel...
happy, cos u spoke to me today

i feel...
stressed, over boss

i feel...
itchy. dry skin? sand flies?

i feel...
cold. i hope i am not about to fall sick

food cravings.
not in alpha order nor intensity of craving.

sushi - the buffet i mean
dim sum - there is a new dim sum stall opp my hse :: craving to be satisfied soon
mochi icecream - haven seen it in ages =(
pizza - chessy one or any
pasta - parmesan chicken spagetti from nydc :: craving to be satisfied soon
cake - a nice creamy one

food cravings-not.
chicken that has not been thoroughly cooked - i had enuff

alrite.

so its not true, its not real.
its not wad i think it is.
it is not happening.

i knew it.

can this be true?
can this be real?

is this wad i think it is?
is this really happening?

i darent think.

i feel empty.

school holidays are coming to an end and all my commitments drawing to a close too.

ndp was the first to go - 09/08
next followed by my driving lessons - 15/08
den there was obs - 11th to 13th and lastly, convocation, which was held today at suntec city convention hall.

i made new frens, met new ppl in the hols.
my ndp frens, my driving instructors, my fellow facilitators and my freshies.
i miss all of them very much.

all of a sudden, i feel an emptiness inside of me.
ndp training every sat, driving every week, obs meetings now and then.
no more of these will i be doing.

wad do i miss abt all these?
the fun? the feeling of being occupied?

such contradiction.
i am looking 4ward to sch yet hoping tat the hols will not end.

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its like graduation.
u leave ur frens behind and move on to a new life ahead of u.
no doubt u will be seeing each other in the future but things are just not the same anymore.

"getting together is only the beginning, staying together is the hard part"

IF?

IF so, so wad?
its not going to change things aint tt so.

i stood there and i waved gdbye to u, u and u.
i waved with all my might.

we parted for less than an hr and i already miss u guys.

i still duno if u dislike me or not.

but i do know tt i like u.

saw you today.
saw you last friday.

i realised i still like you.

yes.

you you you you you.

i had my pri 5,6 class gathering just now.
subway. suntec city.
we have not seen each other in 9yrs.

we shld do this more often...but not too often too :)
my pri sch days. the best schooling days in my life.

those who were present:

the guys - weixiang, hock seng, eugene, sara, heng rui
the gals - me, jiawan, lee en, shujun, yihui, cai qing

love ya all