i give up, i really have to give up.
there is nothing i can do at this point in time.
i already did my best and if he is not receptive den wad the hell can i still do?!
ok i shld have heeded god's advice in the 1st place.

im sorry.
im sorry i wasted my time and energy.
and i shld have been superstitious and heeded the magical book of answers in the 1st place.
it did say tat this will cost me and no, yuyu doesnt like me.

so he didnt like me den or now.
and i tot i cld change things...
and i tot i cld make things work hahahahahahahahahaa!
a big fat joke.

pls dun ask me how things are between me and yuyu anymore k.
spare me the agony.
dun comfort me.
let the rain clouds above me pass.

my social circle is shrinking.
is there no one i can ask out, in good times and bad times?

the only person i can think of asking out is...him
and i know he'll meet up; he never turn down invitations frm anyone- almost never.
but i dun wanna ask him out.
cos his gf is back and i dun wan to take his time away from the gf.
and its not as if we havent spent enuff time in that 3 weeks.
its enuff to last me this whole hols.

and as i start cracking my head to think of who to ask, a realization came over me.
there is no one i can ask.
yea not everyone is as free as i am; they can't come and go as they wish.

i understand.

OMG WAD A SAD LIFE I AM LEADING!