erm to those who have been trying to leave msgs in my comment box- sorrie, i have no idea wad happened and of cos, thanks for trying =)

i am suffering from UE.
or UC, whichever way u wanna call it; i dun think it makes much difference.
hmmmmmm...
i am suffering from both UE and UC. i think.
gosh, its worse than i tot.

excerpts from an email:

exp plus twelve and counting ...

dear friends,

it's been twelve days since our group photo at changi airport ...

we're in what's known as the "post-expedition" phase now ...

and what exactly is that?

that's what i've been trying to figure out as i slack between sleep and
snacks ... that's how you tune into the inspiration channel know :)

beyond those activities ... what next?
ahhh ... that's pretty interesting as well ... cos i tend to think of
post-ex as not so much as the end but more like, hmm, a beginning ...
but of what ... it depends on your answer to the question:

Wanna go on another YEP!?

... ok, ok jus kidding ... rather the question i have in mind is :

having done what we did ...
knowing now what we now ...
are we all jus raring to go back to life as before?
or perhaps there's something more?

and i leave you with that lingering thought ...

over and out,
xxx

life is back to normal, as usual, and when does it ever not anyway -_-
i remember how i dread returning back home.
sure, its good to be back but when u r home bound, ur old responsibilities just creep back on u.
for me, they are things like sch work, my club stuff (esp my club stuff) and all the responsibilities a 21 yr old shld have.
i didnt have to give a damn abt things outside my YEP back in cambodia.
no, i didnt even have to care abt my image! there was none.
ok i know some ppl will argue tt i nv had an image but this is my blog, i say wadever i wan =D
so let me repeat myself: no, i didnt even have to care abt my image! there was none.

life was good in cambodia.
away from civilization and my responsibilitites which nv left me when i was back home.
the only 3 pieces of news i receieved back there was
1) saddam was caught
2) suspected sars case
3) steve chai incident

my physical well being had nv been better.
i woke up at 6am [cambodian time] everyday
i ate 3 meals a day.
work started at 7am and ended by 5.30pm
we went for sunset breaks everynow and then
i slept early every night, except for the last few days i was there.
and did i mention the night sky was grrrreat too?

i wish i cld keep up with this lifestyle back home but sad to say, i can't.
i can't anymore.
there are things u bring back with you and there are things u leave behind.

i dun wan to dramatise my life but i guess its true, it will not be the same again.
no matter how ordinary my life may appear to be now, a small part of me knows that changes have indeed taken place.
it has been 5 days and counting since i started sch and i have yet to switch back to study mode.
but frankly, i guessed i am reluctant to switch back.
i am reluctant to face the monotony of life in sg, i am reluctant to shoulder my responsibilitites.
to quote 1 of my sch's newest catch phrase "embrace something beyond the classroom-life"
i am still searching for it ladies and gents.

this whole trip in a way, had been a surreal one.
i recall on the bus in phnom penh, all the street scenes i took in seemed so unreal - was i watching everything from a tv or was i really there.
on the 28th dec, i was telling someone in sg i had crepes for dinner in cambodia.
and when she asked me when was it, i replied, "just yesterday".

my reminder of this whole yep trip: 20 new friends, wonderful memories and a watersystem sitting quietly between the chapel and dorms.