i dont believe it.
i still cant get over the loss of my xiaomen.

after he got lost, i took off the toiletbowl frm my hp.
i cant look at it w/o being reminded of xm.

and i feel sad too whenever i hold on to my now accessoryless hp.

so i decided to put the toiletbowl back.

and yes i felt sad again whilst fumbling with the thin black strap.

it cld have been two...

maybe i shldnt have named the cat xiaomen.
den perhaps i wldnt have lost it.

cld this be a sign?
i cldnt have the real mcoy (how to spell?) and i lost something dear which was named after him.